One of my top goals at the moment is to learn to live in the present. I find it is especially important while living here in Bangladesh. I am often filled with memories of the past and longings to go back and be with old friends, as well as looking forward to when I will be able to do that. And while I know it's ok to miss my friends and even simple things like cheddar cheese and having a car and doing my own shopping, I don't want to miss out on the rich discoveries of today. But it is a struggle, especially when I'm hot and the power keeps going off and I start feeling sick again and plans change again and again. All I wanted to do yesterday was think about our upcoming anniversary trip to Thailand. Escape! But I woke up this morning to a cool breeze, cheered by the fact that I was feeling a bit better and that the power had only gone off once during the night (instead of 4 times as in the previous night). I fixed a pot of coffee - remember the new coffee pot that gave out on me? They kept their word and fixed it!! As I sipped my coffee on the southern veranda, my favorite early morning spot, I felt so blessed. I'm reminded of the advice of a friend- when you're feeling really down, tell yourself you will not always feel this way, it will pass. And when you are feeling like you're on top of the world, same thing. You will not always feel this way and that is ok. For some reason that helps me to embrace feeling good, instead of bracing myself for something bad to happen. Anyway, here I am, ready to embrace today and hoping this is making sense. There have been the pitter patter of many feet around me, despite the fact that this is supposed to be "quiet" time. So off I go - Ta ta!
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